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It was very late, bv monastery rules, when Alyosha returned to
the hermitage; the doorkeeper let him in by a special entrance. It
had struck nine o'clock-the hour of rest and repose after a day of
such agitation for all. Alyosha timidly opened the door and went
into the elder's cell where his coffin was now standing. There was
no one in the cell but Father Paissy, reading the Gospel in solitude
over the coffin, and the young novice Porfiry, who, exhausted by
the previous night's conversation and the disturbing incidents of the
day, was sleeping the deep sound sleep of youth on the floor of the
other room. Though Father Paissy heard Alyosha come in, he did
not even look in his direction. Alyosha turned to the right from the
door to the corner, fell on his knees and began to pray.
His soul was overflowing but with mingled feelings; no single
sensation stood out distinctly, on the contrary, one drove out an-
other in a slow, continual rotation. But there was a sweetness in his
heart and, strange to say, Alyosha was not surprised at it. Again he
saw that coffin before him, the hidden dead figure so precious to
him, but the weeping and poignant grief of the moming was no
longer aching in his soul. As soon as he came in, he fell down
before the coffin as before a holy shrine, but joy, joy was glowing
in his mind and in his heart. The one window of the cell was open,
the air was fresh and cool. "So the odor must have become stronger,
if they opened the window," thought Alyosha. But even this
thought of the odor of corruption, which had seemed to him so
awful and humiliating a few hours before, no longer made him feel
.miserable or indignant. He began quietly praying, but he soon felt
iat he was praying almost mechanically. Fragments of thought
40ated through his soul, flashed like stars and went out again at
once, to be succeeded by others. But yet there was reigning in his
,pul a sense of the wholeness of things-something steadfast and
comforting-and he was aware of it himself. Sometimes he began
praying ardently, he longed to pour out his thankfulness and love....
But when he had begun to pray, he passed suddenly to something else, and sank into thought,
forgetting both the prayer and what had interrupted it. He began listening to
what Father Paissy was reading, but worn out with exhaustion he gradually began to
doze.
"And the third day there was a marriage in Cana of Galilee," read
Father Paissy. "And the mother of Jesus was there; And both Jesus
was called, and his disciples, to the marriage."
"Marriage? What's that.... A marriage!" floated whirline
through Alyosha's mind. "There is happiness for her, too.... She
has gone to the feast.... No, she has not taken the knife.... Thal
was only a "tragic" phrase.... Well ... tragic phrases should be
forgiven, they must be. Tragic phrases comfort the heart. . .
Without them, sorrow would be too heavy for men to bear. Rakitin
has gone off to the back alley. As long as Rakitin broods over hiz
wrongs, he will always go off to the back alley.... But the higl
road.... The road is wide and straight and bright as crystal, anc
the sun is at the end of it.... Ah! ... What's being read?" ...
"And when thev wanted wine, the mother of Jesus saith unte
him; 'They have no wine' " . . . Alyosha heard.
"Ah, yes, I was missing that, and I didn-t want to miss it, I love
that passage; it's Cana of Galilee, the first miracle.... Ah, that
miracle! Ah, that sweet miracle! It was not men's grief, but thei
joy Christ visited, He worked His first miracle to help men's glad
ness . . . 'He who loves men loves their gladness, too.' . . . He wa
always repeating that, it was one of his leading ideas.... 'There'
no living without joy,' Mitya says.... Yes, Mitya.... 'Everything
that is true and good is always full of forgiveness,' he used to say
that, too" . . .
"Jesus saith unto her, Woman, what has it to do with thee o
me? Mine hour is not yet come.
"His mother saith unto the servants: Whatsoever he saith unto
you, do it" . . .
"Do it.... Gladness, the gladness of some poor, very poor
people.... Of course they were poor, since they hadn't wine
enough even at a wedding.... The historians write that, in those
days, the people living about the Lake of Gennesaret were the
poorest that can possibly be imagined . . . and another great heart
that other great being, His Mother, knew that He had come not
only to make His great terrible sacrifice. She knew that His heart,
was open even to the simple, artless merrymaking of some obscure
and unlearned people, who had warmly bidden Elim to their poor
wedding. 'Mine hour is not yet come,' He said, with a soft smile
(He must have smiled gently to her). And indeed was it to make
wine abundant at poor weddings He had come down to earth? And
yet He went and did as she asked Him.... Ah, he is reading
again" . . .
"Jesus saith unto them, Fill the waterpots with water. And they
filled them up to the brim.
"And he saith unto them, Draw out now and bear unto the
governor of the feast. And they bare it.
"When the ruler of the feast had tasted the water that was made
wine, and knew not whence it was; [but the servants which drew
the water knew the governor of the feast called the bridegroom,
"And saith unto him: Every man at the beginning doth set forth
good wine; and when men have well drunk, that which is worse;
but thou hast kept the good wine until now."
"But what's this, what's this? Why is the room growing wider? . . .
Ah, ves . . . It's the marriage, the wedding . . . ves, of course. Here
are the guests, here are the young couple sitting, and the merry
crowd and . . . Where is thc wise governor of the feast? But who is
this? Who? Again the walls are receding.... Who is getting up
there from the great table? What! . . . He here, too? But he's in the
coffin . . . but he's here, too. He has stood up, he sees me, he is
coming here.... God ! " ...
Yes, he came up to him, to him, he, the little, thin old man, with
tiny wrinkles on his face, joyful and laughing softly. There was no
coffin now, and he was in the same dress as he had worn yesterday
sitting with them, when the visitors had gathered about him. His
face was uncovered, his eyes were shining. How was this then, he,
too, had been called to the feast. He, too, at the marriage of Cana
in Galilee....
"Yes, my dear, I am called, too, called and bidden," he heard a
soft voice saying over him. "Why have you hidden yourself here,
out of sight? You come and join us too."
It was his voice, the voice of Father Zosima. And it must be he,
since he called him! The elder raised Alyosha by the hand and he
rose from his knees.
"We are rejoicing," the little, thin old man went on. "We are
drinking the new wine, the wine of new, great gladness; do you see
how many guests? Here are the bride and bridegroom, here is the
wise govcrnor of the feast, he is tasting the new wine. Why do you
wonder at me? I gave an onion to a beggar, so I, too, am here. And
many here have given only an onion each-only one little onion....
What are all our deeds? And you, my gentle onc, you, my kind
boy, you too have known how to give a famished woman an onion
todav. Bcgin vour work, dear one, begin it, gentle one! . . . Do you
see our Sun, do you see Him?"
"I am afraid . . . I dare not look," whispered Alyosha.
"Do not fear Him. He is terrible in His greatness, awful in His
sublimity, but infinitely merciful. He has made Himself like unto us
from love and rejoices with us. He is changing the water into wine
that the gladness of the guests may not be cut short. He is expect-
ing new guests, He is calling new ones unceasingly forever and
ever.... There they are bringing new wine. Do you see they are
bringing the vessels . . ."
Something glowed in Alyosha's heart, something filled it till it
ached, tears of rapture rose from his soul.... He stretched out his
hands, uttered a cry and woke up.
Again the coffin, the open window, and the soft, solemn, distinct
reading of the Gospel. But Alyosha did not listen to the reading. It
was strange, he had fallen asleep on his knees, but now he was on
his feet, and suddenly, as though thrown forward, with three firm
rapid steps he went right up to the coffin. His shoulder brushed
against Father Paissy without his noticing it. Father Paissy raised
his eyes for an instant from his book, but looked away again at
once, seeing that something strange was happening to the youth.
Alyosha gazed for half a minute at the coffin, at the covered,
motionless dead man that lay in the coffin, with the icon on his
breast and the peaked hood with the octangular cross, on his head.
He had only just been hearing his voice, and that voice was still
ringing in his ears. He was listening, still expecting other words, but
suddenly he turned sharply and went out of the cell.
He did not stop on the steps either, but went quickly down; his
soul, overflowing with rapture, yearned for freedom, space, open-
ness. The vault of heaven, full of soft, shining stars, stretched vast
and fathomless above him. The Milky Way ran in two pale streams
from the zenith to the horizon. The fresh, motionless, still night
enfolded the earth. The white towers and golden domes of the
cathedral gleamed out against the sapphire sky. The gorgeous au-
tumn flowers, in the beds round the house, were slumbering till
morning. The silence of earth seemed to melt into the silence of the
heavens. The mystery of earth was one with the mystery of the f
stars.... Alyosha stood, gazed, and suddenly threw himself down
on the earth.
He did not know why he embraced it. He could not have told
why he longed so irresistibly to kiss it, to kiss it all. But he kissed it
weeping, sobbing and watering it with his tears, and vowed pas-
sionately to love it, to love it forever and ever. "Water the earth
with the tears of your joy and love those tears," echoed in his soul.
What was he weeping over? Oh! in his rapture he was weeping even
over those stars, which were shining to him from the abyss of
space, and "he was not ashamed of that ecstasy." There seemed to
be threads from all those innumerable worlds of God, linking his
soul to them, and it was trembling all over "in contact with other
worlds." He longed to forgive everyone and for everything, and to
beg forgiveness. Oh, not for himself, but for all men, for all and for
everything. "And others are praying for me too," echoed again in
his soul. But with every instant he felt clearly and, as it were,
tangibly, that something firm and unshakable as that vault of
heaven had entered into his soul. It was as though some idea had
seized the sovereignty of his mind-and it was for all his life and
forever and ever. He had fallen on the earth a weak youth, but he
rose up a resolute champion, and he knew and felt it suddenly at
the very moment of his ecstasy. And never, never, all his life long,
could Alyosha forget that minute. "Someone visited my soul in that
hour," he used to say afterwards, with implicit faith in his words.
Within three days he left the monastery in accordance with the
words of his elder, who had bidden him to "sojourn in the world."